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I've felt a bit miserable the last week and I'm not really sure why, so as I usually do when I have thoughts and feelings I need to wrap my greasy mitts round, I've taken to doing this again.

The girl I went on that date with, we've dated again. I like her. She's called joy. She's pretty and she's nice, but I worry she'll want something more serious. We've only had two dates though and it's been fun and I like the feel of her hand in mine and I like kissing her and that's just fine.
 
Megan's been kind of a shitty friend to me recently, setting things up then cancelling last minute, generally making me feel like a bother when I try and get in touch with her. Screw that. 

If the reason for why I feel bad lies somewhere, work is probably it. It's nice in that they're kinda taking me seriously and giving me lots of shifts, but also they're making me feel kinda shitty. I get spoken to like I'm a child or an incompetent pretty often, and frankly I have iron skin but I'm getting sick of it. I don't really feel like they care about me. I might just be being a drama queen. They're good friends usually.

There's a new girl in work called Alicia and good God it's ridiculously unfair how attractive she is. She's blonde with a pink streak in her hair and a piercing on her lip and she has an australian accent and please just marrry meeee
we get along really well which is neat. If I'm not mistaken we might even be flirting some. However she's been here a week and usually if people are coming here it's for a man, so I imagine she has a boyfriend. Not getting the ol' hopes up just yet.  

Felt kinda lonely this week. Anything I didn't have to cancel got cancelled by the other people I was meeting. I think this is what made me feel like nobody cares about me. I'm not sure.  

I think I need to pull or something. Maybe that will make me feel better.